antsy.

The beginning of spring makes me so antsy. It always has. Probably because the sun has finally started to come out here and there... but it's not quite warm enough to go out and enjoy it. I've always been best at self-reflection when I'm outside doing something, like running myself sick. Lately, there's been so much to think about and I've been stuck inside with my distractions. So, all my thoughts, passions, fears, frustrations, and dreams all just tangle up into knots. Too much.

I find myself in the thick of a quarter-life crisis. Like I have to buy a new car or paint my whole apartment or get a dog just to appease the gnawing feeling inside (none of these things is a sensible solution here). Who am I? Who do I need to become? What do I really want? I can tell you one thing, it's not a 100 mile-a-day commute. Probably should have thought that one through a little better. It's like I woke up one day and thought, "Is this job what I imagined for myself?" I think I am still figuring out what I want to be when I grow up.

On the plus side, it will be prime picnic weather in about 2-3 weeks... YES! Picnics are the best date ever, probably because Dan wooed me with his picnic skills and now I can't get enough of them. Or him :)

And, I am also nearing graduation ceremonies. Maybe after that this whole graduated thing will feel a little more real?

And, I am about to cross another concert off of my dream list... ARCADE FIRE! YES!

[RACHEL]